It could have been better.

I seriously need to learn to fight, my ability read isn't getting better if I always feel scared like I did in this game. Ultimately, there were several holes I left for the opponent to exploit just by playing overly cautious game and not having guts to attack where it would have counted. From the very first moves I caved in and saw black gaining major influence while my own grew smaller and smaller.

I spare the commentary, since this was such a embarrassing match. Ok, the guy I played against was strong, but yes even he did leave openings, though shamefully I never even tried to go after them. Not like I even saw them in game. Yeah, and B2 was scary when I realized it reading the comments after the game, I wonder why black didn't use it to his advantage.

There's a saying though according which a loser gains more than the winner. So maybe I did. We can hope so.

Here's the game:

(W) AmbyR00 16k vs. (B) AkinfeevK 2k

(;GM[1]FF[4]CA[UTF-8]AP[CGoban:3]ST[2]
RU[Japanese]SZ[19]KM[6.50]TM[1500]OT[5x30 byo-yomi]
PW[AmbyR00]PB[AkinfeevK]WR[16k]BR[2k]DT[2010-06-05]PC[The KGS Go Server at http://www.gokgs.com/]C[AkinfeevK [2k\]: hi gl
AmbyR00 [16k\]: hi... have a nice one :)
AkinfeevK [2k\]: ASR League
]RE[B+80.50]
;B[pd]BL[1483.432]C[AmbyR00 [16k\]: ASR League
]
;W[dp]WL[1490.486]
;B[pq]BL[1481.364]C[more [5k\]: )))))))))))
]
;W[dc]WL[1471.397]
;B[fq]BL[1478.59]
;W[cn]WL[1469.334]
;B[jp]BL[1476.593]C[more [5k\]: ща 16к мочить будет)
]
;W[dr]WL[1462.074]C[Agzam [-\]: (
]
;B[de]BL[1453.889]
;W[fd]WL[1436.879]
;B[cc]BL[1451.732]
;W[ec]WL[1428.016]
;B[cd]BL[1441.518]
;W[ic]WL[1414.94]
;B[ci]BL[1437.669]
;W[qf]WL[1390.725]
;B[qh]BL[1414.697]
;W[of]WL[1388.075]
;B[nd]BL[1412.829]
;W[mf]WL[1383.456]
;B[lc]BL[1409.649]
;W[ke]WL[1357.555]
;B[rd]BL[1407.498]
;W[qj]WL[1343.313]
;B[rf]BL[1401.264]
;W[rj]WL[1249.769]
;B[qn]BL[1397.156]
;W[rh]WL[1200.053]
;B[er]BL[1386.339]
;W[fo]WL[1128.14]
;B[go]BL[1376.183]
;W[fn]WL[1123.933]
;B[gp]BL[1372.003]
;W[fp]WL[1108.522]
;B[cl]BL[1364.183]
;W[el]WL[1086.956]
;B[jm]BL[1334.443]
;W[nn]WL[1059.709]
;B[no]BL[1319.05]
;W[mn]WL[1029.134]
;B[mo]BL[1317.316]C[H2SO5 [1d\]: what's this contact
]
;W[ol]WL[1011.483]
;B[on]BL[1312.404]C[asm [6k\]: whats this contact ?
H2SO5 [1d\]: o5
asm [6k\]: hi play vs 16k..
]
;W[ll]WL[956.217]
;B[rg]BL[1308.761]C[asm [6k\]: just dont care maybe
]
;W[qg]WL[954.044]
;B[jj]BL[1303.388]
;W[lj]WL[948.838]
;B[ri]BL[1294.651]C[asm [6k\]: *he
]
;W[si]WL[940.088]
;B[sh]BL[1292.734]
;W[sj]WL[938.33]
;B[ph]BL[1287.985]
;W[og]WL[931.864]
;B[oj]BL[1284.265]
;W[oi]WL[916.314]
;B[pi]BL[1259.911]
;W[qi]WL[912.736]
;B[rh]BL[1256.914]
;W[pj]WL[911.568]
;B[oh]BL[1254.89]
;W[ni]WL[910.5]
;B[nh]BL[1254.193]
;W[nj]WL[903.812]
;B[lf]BL[1248.915]
;W[lg]WL[890.259]
;B[mg]BL[1245.615]
;W[le]WL[886.585]
;B[nf]BL[1244.612]
;W[kf]WL[856.097]
;B[ne]BL[1241.257]
;W[mh]WL[854.609]
;B[ng]BL[1239.251]
;W[li]WL[847.404]
;B[ln]BL[1232.718]
;W[lm]WL[835.166]
;B[kn]BL[1226.243]
;W[rm]WL[813.946]
;B[rn]BL[1223.232]
;W[qm]WL[812.294]
;B[om]BL[1219.97]
;W[nm]WL[805.718]
;B[nl]BL[1217.725]
;W[mm]WL[802.988]
;B[pl]BL[1216.516]
;W[ok]WL[801.1]
;B[pm]BL[1215.351]
;W[ql]WL[799.027]
;B[cb]BL[1200.885]
;W[ck]WL[772.125]
;B[bk]BL[1198.314]
;W[dk]WL[755.575]
;B[bm]BL[1192.114]
;W[bn]WL[753.954]
;B[ds]BL[1186.87]
;W[eq]WL[730.738]
;B[fr]BL[1173.888]
;W[cs]WL[729.76]
;B[es]BL[1172.128]
;W[br]WL[717.685]
;B[hq]BL[1169.268]
;W[hm]WL[692.215]
;B[hn]BL[1165.343]C[H2SO5 [1d\]: b2 is like an invitation
]
;W[gn]WL[678.394]
;B[im]BL[1131.659]
;W[hl]WL[671.377]
;B[ik]BL[1124.752]
;W[in]WL[660.321]
;B[ho]BL[1122.61]
;W[ji]WL[627.365]
;B[hk]BL[1119.366]
;W[gk]WL[617.564]
;B[gj]BL[1112.828]
;W[fj]WL[603.888]
;B[gl]BL[1110.595]
;W[gm]WL[598.466]
;B[fk]BL[1109.001]
;W[fl]WL[593.67]
;B[gk]BL[1106.803]
;W[ei]WL[551.179]
;B[cg]BL[1098.698]
;W[eg]WL[549.235]
;B[ii]BL[1092.346]
;W[jh]WL[541.259]
;B[fe]BL[1077.633]
;W[ge]WL[535.799]
;B[ff]BL[1075.875]
;W[fg]WL[532.357]
;B[gf]BL[1073.655]
;W[he]WL[501.177]
;B[ed]BL[1049.385]
;W[gc]WL[499.23]
;B[ej]BL[1046.093]
;W[dj]WL[482.737]
;B[ek]BL[1044.801]
;W[dl]WL[476.246]
;B[di]BL[1042.763]
;W[cm]WL[442.66]
;B[bl]BL[1036.869]
;W[hh]WL[380.606]
;B[gh]BL[1009.056]
;W[gg]WL[365.844]
;B[hg]BL[1007.964]
;W[ig]WL[355.597]
;B[hf]BL[1006.418]
;W[gi]WL[330.545]
;B[ih]BL[1005.109]
;W[hi]WL[306.513]
;B[ij]BL[1003.823]
;W[if]WL[293.396]
;B[df]BL[995.774]
;W[kb]WL[203.807]
;B[lb]BL[992.145]
;W[kc]WL[197.942]
;B[la]BL[988.301]
;W[md]WL[189.032]
;B[mc]BL[986.603]
;W[ld]WL[168.989]
;B[nc]BL[975.048]
;W[ka]WL[163.271]
;B[dd]BL[973.435]
;W[db]WL[161.938]
;B[da]BL[971.202]
;W[ea]WL[159.286]
;B[ca]BL[969.832]
;W[fb]WL[154.548]
;B[bj]BL[946.922]
;W[jl]WL[99.888]
;B[il]BL[942.909]
;W[kk]WL[95.581]
;B[an]BL[939.519]
;W[ao]WL[93.14]
;B[am]BL[938.45]
;W[bp]WL[91.026]
;B[sm]BL[930.57]
;W[sl]WL[86.911]
;B[sn]BL[929.584]
;W[pk]WL[49.308]
;B[oo]BL[924.622]
;W[km]WL[36.292]
;B[jn]BL[917.794]
;W[jk]WL[35.186]
;B[kj]BL[916.667]
;W[ki]WL[21.282]
;B[me]BL[915.125]
;W[lf]WL[19.166]
;B[qc]BL[876.557]
;W[]WL[30]OW[5]
;B[]BL[876.557]TW[fa][ga][ha][ia][ja][eb][gb][hb][ib][jb][fc][hc][jc][gd][hd][id][jd][kd][ie][je][jf][jg][kg][kh][lh][mi][mj][oj][lk][mk][nk][qk][rk][sk][kl][ml][nl][rl][dm][em][fm][dn][en][bo][co][do][eo][ap][cp][ep][aq][bq][cq][dq][ar][cr][as][bs]TB[aa][ba][ma][na][oa][pa][qa][ra][sa][ab][bb][mb][nb][ob][pb][qb][rb][sb][ac][bc][oc][pc][rc][sc][ad][bd][od][qd][sd][ae][be][ce][ee][oe][pe][qe][re][se][af][bf][cf][ef][of][pf][qf][sf][ag][bg][dg][eg][fg][gg][og][pg][qg][sg][ah][bh][ch][dh][eh][fh][hh][ai][bi][ei][fi][gi][hi][aj][fj][hj][ak][al][in][pn][io][jo][ko][lo][po][qo][ro][so][hp][ip][kp][lp][mp][np][op][pp][qp][rp][sp][gq][iq][jq][kq][lq][mq][nq][oq][qq][rq][sq][gr][hr][ir][jr][kr][lr][mr][nr][or][pr][qr][rr][sr][fs][gs][hs][is][js][ks][ls][ms][ns][os][ps][qs][rs][ss]C[AmbyR00 [16k\]: thank you
AkinfeevK [2k\]: thanks
AmbyR00 [16k\]: whew... I feel strained :)
AkinfeevK [2k\]: ))
AmbyR00 [16k\]: hmm...
AmbyR00 [16k\]: anyone want to go over this with me? :)
])

I'll be on KGS today night, hoping to play at least a couple of league games. See you there! /gg ^^

Update: Didn't have a chance to play even one. Maybe it's just a good thing, since I am a bit sleep deprived after last night. I was caught up arguing politics in the Middle East. So I've not slept too much. I'll be heading to bed now, so I can recoup a bit.